Exactly at this time last year I was on a plane getting ready to depart to a new country that I never knew before.
Scared. excited. anxious. sad. happy all of those kind of feelings were mixed up at first
I won’t denied that at first I stepped my foot there I was feeling lost and as day went by the feeling of wanting to go home get even stronger but I braced myself and tried as best as I could to go through with it and yet finally after suffering for almost 2 months something changed
I FALL IN LOVE with the whole country
YES I said WHOLE!
The whole story began when I finished my university life for the first month then I went to another city to do my internship
The biggest. the most beautiful (I’m not quite sure why since for me it’s just OK. the most expensive city in the country (I’m not proud it’s just pathetic)
I didn’t expect much at first since the whole HOMESICK stuffs still on my nerve yet it didn’t get any better for the next 1 month
The job was extremely TIRING
I’m not saying this because I’m being spoiled but the job itself was THOUGH
At the first month I was working for 12 to 13 hours ALMOST everyday with BREAKFAST SHIFT, my German is not quite good (I’m not used to hear German language spoken so fast), my colleagues and my boss sometimes scolded me if I did something wrong
The other problem was about my neighbor in my living place
They are sort of selfish because they used to talk loud and yet when it came to me I was not allowed to loud
The other issue was about my long showering period (blame me but it is who I am) which is kinda annoying for them (of course everyone will but try to be a little bit patient people)
OVERALL at first it was SUPER OVERWHELMING for me
I even though of given up and find another place to do my internship
LUCKILY things gotten better
I’ve gotten used to work that long, my boss and colleagues are getting nicer (even also sometimes I still get scolded)
My annoying neighbor in my living place was MOVED (hahaha I was relieved when it happened oops)
and MOST of all there are 2 MAIN REASON
the first reason is I TOTALLY in LOVE with the country cause I can travel a LOT
I’m not kidding when I said this while almost every of my days off I went to another city
Even it was kinda dangerous and YES I did experienced some BAD THINGS yet I still won’t stop me to do it
I just love to travel! I can’t help it! it was addicting!
The second is THE PEOPLE
The people there were nice (even also some of them a lil bit creepy)
Walking around there was safer rather than walking in my home country
Sometimes I got an offer for a ride when someone saw me walking
It’s kinda nice surrounded by people like that
AND the biggest people affected me this much to love about people here probably my colleagues
I finally got it that they were nice but really STRICT
They have almost ZERO tolerance to mistakes
It’s just who they are yet my colleagues were nice and even childish
They like to play around, joking around while working
It was nice surrounded by them really and I was really sad when I have to go back home
I was thinking about leaving my study and continue to work here but there’s nothing I can do I still have a responsibility
OK actually who made me to think such a crazy idea wasn’t only my colleagues
There is some guy who is my colleague who made me TOTALLY CRAZY
He was younger than me but he did protected and treated me like I’m his younger sister
I didn’t really care if people thought that what he did to me was a JERK
Because it really just shown me HOW GREAT he is
Young. caring. nice. smart. funny. “stupid”. childish. attractive. party lovers. naughty. would be the best way to describe him
See I didn’t only mention his positive side yet I also mention his flaws
I have no idea that actually he represent what I actually really looking for in a man
He made me realized what do I like and what I’m actually looking for
YES because of him I almost not going home, I almost quit my study just to be with him
My point of view was surely changed much because of him
I’m not quite proud of the way he changed me cause for my friends the cause that he did on me was SUPER DAMAGING
I actually a lil bit understand about it but what if it is who am I?
Am I not supposed to be happy as who I am?
Maybe YES he is not a GOOD BOY, he is a bad naughty boy who loves to party but who cares for me he is a BAD ASS!
That boy was really opened my eyes to see world in a different view yet even I realized it quite late I WAS HEAD OVER HEALS about him starting from the moment I met him (even it was started with a lil bit of hate at first ;p)
That whole reasons are my motivation to be back soon after I finish my study cause I won’t miss any shot to live that kind of life
So I’ll be back for sure not ONLY for him of course but for all the good things and people there.
I love you guys and miss you guys for sure just wait for me. Cao